Om sai sharanam....
Baba...this is absolutely not going anywhere. I've analysed a million times and i am trying to seek an answer to my problems...but i am not getting any. Ok...i am frustrated. But now i am not going to worry. I'm going to let things be. After all, you have actually taken care of the bigger things in life. The small ones can be handled or accomodated. You have given us the things we required and when we required. then what makes me think i'll not get what i want now. it has always been a trend with me that i dont get anything easily. except perhaps my first job....i cant remember any other instance where i would have got something easily. i never get anything that i really want without getting upset and frustrated.maybe that was a fluke moment or maybe i got very lucky with my first job. otherwise, i've always had to work hard and pray hard. ok...going forward, i'm going to keep trying for a job change, but am not desparate. I need to control my frustrations at work since it's not going to help. remember - its just a job u r doing and getting paid for it. there is nothing personal here. i need the money now. and let me earn while i can still earn. 2 years down the line, i need to change tracks and see for a freelance option. so i need the 2 years here to plan for that. the first year was spent in coping with my mother's death. the second year is consumed with my father's relocation. So the next 2 years are mine for investing in me for learning new things and setting up a new profile.