Conversation with Baba....my true friend

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baba..good morning. Lots of work this weekend and we were quite busy. But all fine. No complaints I ate a lot of junk...which is bad for me. so need to get back on track this week. work wise - please please be with me....

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Rozroz aakhon tale....ek hi sapna jale....raat bhar kaajal jale...ankhon mein jis tarah khwab ka diya jale....

Love this song baba...but it always makes me sad...i want to cry...why? I always feel like i am missing my mother...

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So true baba...we need not shout or scream...we just need to be sincere and true to ourselves when we speak to you.
baba..everyday when i drive to work, as soon as i reach the office vicinity, i thank you. I thank you for giving me my dream job in my dream company....thank you.

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Baba...good morning....please let everything be alright...take care of people...please protect the needy and punish the guilty...let there be justice baba....please

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baba..please shower your mercy on all...u know everything.

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baba...good morning. All that i have is because of you and my mother. A was right - she must have pestered you to help me My capabilities are of no use here...and its only your grace that has brought me here. Thank you dear lord

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Baba...can i speak to my mother please? I miss her and want to talk to her. I want to know that she is ok.

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Dear lord....I hope my mother is fine. My father is with my relatives for the past one month. And he has really enjoyed it. I am happy for him. Please keep him happy always ....he has seen so many tough days...he was unable o fullfill his dreams...baba...please let me fullfill at least some part of his dreams....and baba...i have promised to take care of him...please enable me to do so....
thank you for everything dear lord.

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baba...why am i so angry with myself? Is it because i know that i am sabotaging myself? Is it because i know what i need to do yet am nt doing it!! It is indeed frustrating. Baba...i have surveyed the landscape...and i know how things are at the mo. And i also know i can do very well if i want to. Question is  - what is stopping me?? Is it me myself?? Why am i a slave to my past? Why do want to cling onto the old rituals that are the cause of my downfall in the first place. Its not worth it baba!!! Iknow it...and thats why i am upset...a little annoyed and disappointed with myself....i am my best friend and my worst enemy. I need to stop this absurd behaviour. Whom am i trying to con?? I am the one who is losing in the end....

So baba...i need to "GET OVER IT". please please please....let me get over it.

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Baba...good morning.
U r right - in good times, people seldom remember u...and in bad times, thy only call out ur name. And i am no different baba. I too am like this only. Now i am going through a decent phase in life and all seems ok. So my interaction with u has reduced!! And then i expect you to work with me!! I must be crazy...
Baba...this is no exchange offer. I would seriously try to do something everyday that makes it worthwhile. And i will try todo it to the best of my abilities.....

Please forgive me for neglecting you and my duties.

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baba...i am going to pieces today. I think i am getting upset...but why is this happening? God alone knows..u alone know...
baba...please....i'll do whatever it takes....its funny...here i go again...barter system...

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Baba...good morning. A is much better now...thank you. I am so relieved. Baba...please take care of him. I really want the best for him. Please resolve all the issues for him. he is a genuinely nice man. Baba...i pray for my son and husband as well....they mean the world to me.
Baba...please ..let me be true to you and myself....always.

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Its like i am hell bent on sabotaging myself...cant seeany reason for this...but here i am ...

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baba...please see that better sense prevails on me and i dont end up doing the same set of mistakes as always.....please let me not set myself up for failure.

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Baba...i feel stupid and idiotic...and its all my own doing. I have self inflicted this and maybe i deserve to be kicked for this. so enough of this nonsense from my side dear lord. I mean i dont have to go far to see who has been successful. I myself have been so good and so successful (all thank to u) and in so many ways. Then why should i set myself up for failure now? Especially when u have handed this opportunity of a lifetime to me. i better get back in the groove. I dont like it when someone says that i am not good or not worthy. I know that with your blessings and my sincere hard work, nothing is impossible. Its foolish to sit back and wait and waste my time. I have been blinded and my udgement has been impaired off late because of a plethora of distractons. And i am fully responsible for this baba. I and i alone have brought this on myself and i and i alone will work to overcome this. There is no way in the world i will let this go. I have had enough. I draw my inspiration from R when it comes to doing what u want to do. I draw my inspiration from myself when it comes to handling a project that was deeply in red. The general perception is that i talk big and do less. Jill of all trade master of some. No way. I am going to be the master of my trade and master of myself and all the things that i love.
Keep inspiring baba...and keep me going strong.