Baba...i think i know why she is here in my life. To teach me to be stronger and braver. To help me become thick skinned. It would never have been possible without her. All my life i have been a good girl...obedient, teacher's pet, disciplined, studious and always putting others needs over mine. i have bent backwards to accommodate many people. I have said yes when i wanted to say no. And now...i have this strange sense of freedom. Its as if i dont care what people think of me...as if i am secretly happy that she is trying to rattle me and yet i am unfazed. I dont know what it is...but i am past the point of caring what she says and thinks about me. I still care what she says and thinks about my father....but that too shall be overcome. I cant live my life thinking and worrying about what others say about me. In fact i am glad that she is worrying about my happiness...it means she is jealous. She has the most crookedest minds in the world and absolutely the most suspicious person on earth. wont be surprised if she sets of PI on me. As if i care....i dont. And i think thats what was your objective of having me to deal with her. It makes me stronger. I have reached a dangerous level of independence where i cant seem to care what she thinks of me.
baba...and i think this is also a reminder for me to focus on my job. I always cribbed and complained about it. But no baba...no more. I am thankful to you for helping me to stay away from her for most parts of the day. I dont deal with her as much as i could be, had i stayed at home. I am financially independent. And i dont care.
Yet baba...i pray for peace and harmony. we are going to be visiting you soon...baba...please no sparks during the trip.