om sai ram vinnuji,
om sai nathaya nama.. follow God dont wish to happen miracles overnite... abt ur changing ur way from the path of God to some other mantra is what i think will be of no benefit because, it is you yourself whi needs to beliv in sai or any form of God u beliv and just chant their name and god will be their to take car eof u and ur wishes.. c vinnuji, even i surfed all sites when i was sad and depressed , but i did not follow what they all preached for the simple resaon that God is within us n we need to realise that and give up our ego and all other emotions which make us feel superior to others and make us feel powerful, it is God our sai our shiv shankar who is here for us and who tests us our patience, our deliverence, but we will have to suffer for if we have done wrong but at the same time tell sai ram that we will give these tests and in the end sai will have to pass us in these exams, have patiencee, as only then baba will make u a better person to deal with little things which earlier made u react like a fool.
vinnuji, i can understand ur pain, therefore i want u to just beliv in ur God and ur love. i know it is hard, every second seems like a lifetime filled with hardships but vinnuji, in the end sai will bless u with ur true love and u will keep thanking sai.
u say u feel restless, its ur inner self that is feeling restless, keep it in control, have patience and just close ur eyes and sai sai naam. sai is here vinnuji, he is listnin ur cryings and seein ur pain but when will he respond is only upto him.
just be possitive that all will be good and c sai will smile and shower his blessings on u.
om sai ram vinnuji, tk care n keep the faith.trust sai