Love and affections can only give us either sorrow or happiness in life. We neither stand to gain nor loose any thing from either of them. It is therefore foolish to continue clinging to either of them forever.
Once you have realized that you have done something wrong, repetition of the same is unethical. Be prepared to face the consequences of it if you do so. Do not forget that it is next to impossible to run away from one's own conscience.
You are the only a witness to the past happenings in your life. Never give credence or value to them. Believe and hope for better future and live peacefully.
Om Sri Sairam