Om Sai Ram..
I had thought when i was praying that if this happens I will let others know about the miracle...wonder why I dint think of such an helpful forum before...It is a long story...
I was working for a software company in India...I met a very nice guy who is all i want now...He had proposed in november 08. i got an abroad opportunity and went to US, while I was there, in February I told my parents that I like someone in my office and they shouldn be searching anyone for the marriage...They were devastated when I told this..All of us cried, I went back home to India. All my cousins, myself and ashish tried explaining it to my parents. They just wouldnt accept.
They said they want all their relatives and no one would come home if I married outside the caste and that they all would speak bad about our family. As a daughter I understand that they are under the pressure of relatives and societies. Eventhough I badly knew what I wanted, I couldnt have it because I couldnt hurt my parents. But i also couldnt hurt myself, because fooling oneself that you can live happily ever after with someone else other than Ashish was tough..
Time heals everything. So I decided to take some time. I applied for universities in UK and I got into a good one. In the mean time, Ashish wanted to apply and come with me too because he dint want to lose me or stay away from me. It was august and the college starts by september. It was too late to apply. We put everything on Sai and I did the nine thursdays vrat for him to get a seat in a good university.
Everyday was full of problems. Each day was new and every day we had trouble. We both used to close our eyes and think that Baba will help us out..We both comforted each other..After lots and lots of hardships from loan rejections, visa delays, application rejections and money problems, everything worked out for him and he left to the university before me all by BABA's grace. I was still waiting for my visa. I had taken sabatical leave so was at home.
And when I was at home my parents started asking about my relationship and they wanted to get me married. I took my daddy on a walk and explained him that I would be happy only with him and I will only love that guy till the end of my life. My dad had problems with this and the next day he took out his bags wrote a will about the property and said he is leaving the house.. I begged him to stay back. He cried saying I dont care about him so I shouldnt be bothered, my mom scolded me for bringing so much pain to the family...I cried and cried and wrote a mail to Ashish saying we can never be one and I can never hurt my parents so he has to forget me. I cried continuously for days. And my parents thought that I treated this as a competition which I tried to win..I was waiting for my visa although I dint know what to do now..Should I go or Shouldnt I go???
While we concentrated on his applications, I totally forgot about myself. The UK embassy in India was holding my visa approval because my course had already started. They wanted an extension letter from the university. I called them and asked. They said they wouldnt give me one because its already late to join the university. Then Ashish spoke like my dad saying everything else was ready and just the extension letter and I would be in UK the next day. That week we had come back from Shirdi..I had bought the Sai Satcharita book. I had it before also with me but never read it...
I had problems with my visa and about my love..two important decisions to make..I went to the pooja room spoke to baba that "I dont know what to do, so you help me out...I am leaving the decisions to your hands...give me the visa only if you can help us get married in future..give me the visa only if i can take that step closer to my love...If this is not going to happen and if my parents will never agree then let me stay here and get married to anyone whom my parents tell because my mom says its easy to forget someone whom you love and live with someone else and everybody does this..." I took the satcharita book...read 7 chapters everyday and cried everyday in front of Sai. Those days where the sorrow filled and hallow days of my life....My parents thought I was crying about my visa but I am so surprised that they never understood that there are bigger problems and emotions tat i was handling and going through..Or may be they never wanted to understand...
On the sixth day I got the visa and the seventh day I reached UK...
Baba gave me what I wanted deep down. I understood that he will help you out no matter what..you just have to trust him. I also have immense faith that he will help my parents to accept my love someday and help us get married. Even though my parents ask me to leave the house I can not because I love them, I need them and I always will...I trust baba that he will answer my prayers...Sai will help me now and forever...Whatever it is,,Just ask him and he will be there...
If there is anything I learnt in life it is to have "Faith and Patience"
Om Shri Satchitananda SatGuru SaiNath MahaRaj Ki Jai...
Loka Samastha Sukino Bavanthu...
Hema