Dear Baba,
Since the past one year life has not been very easy and seems to be turning for the worst. Away from home to do my MBA, now the biggest worry is if i will find a decent job after completion, having spend so many dollars. In home the situation is growing from bad to worse, parents are heading for a divorce and it is going to be a lot of mud slinging.
I understand that you test us time and again, but does it end? a sign of hope keeps one going, what is your sign for me? Obviously, have committed huge sins to go through this, but are sin's not suppose to be destroyed in front of you as dry grass is in front of fire? My mother prays to you everyday, why can't you help her? guide her? be her friend? since i last spoke to her, a part of me has died. Frankly, now i prefer death to this. I thank you for all your blessings, and ask you for one last favor, give me death at your feet. I know I am not a perfect devotee and cannot aspire to be one, I have lost hope and the zeal for life now
sai ram