Join Sai Baba Announcement List


DOWNLOAD SAMARPAN - Nov 2018





Author Topic: will babaji accept me  (Read 33134 times)

0 Members and 1 Guest are viewing this topic.

Offline shiveshwar

  • Member
  • Posts: 68
  • Blessings 0
Re: will babaji accept me
« Reply #75 on: March 29, 2011, 08:04:30 AM »
  • Publish
  • Om Sai Ram
    hey Shanu..i understand wat u tryin to point out..look wat i can conclude from ur posts is dat i should keep chanting babaji's name without any pain and with all joy..i shouldnt be sad and should think gud things abt life and believe dat watever babaji is doin is for my good.. and i should make an effort towards all dese..shanu let me tel u i so badly wanna do all dis..and i was doin it for last two years..i mean i was happy, was remembering babaji everyday and was thinkin only positive and gud abt life..but all f a sudden world changed arnd me..n m still tryin to cope up with dat..its just dat i can see where i move but wat i m facing is dat how to move to tht side..i can see wat i m supposed to do right now..its just dat i cant gather myself to do dat..and i dont remember d pain or memories..they r just omnipresent ..in every second...
    and u know wat my biggest confusion is dis..should i move on and stop expecting nisha back or should i wait and expect dat one day bababji wud listen to my prayers...i dont know wat should i do...i can not accept d fact dat mein aur nisha sirf alag hone ke liye hi mile the..somewhere i hv dis feeling ki we share this realtionship not only in dis birth but in previous births as well..its wasn't a coincidence dat we met in this life and had a beautiful 5 years...dep in my heart i still hv hope dat one day she wud cm bak..one day sai wud listen to my prayers..and trusting sai baba is makin me not to move away from her..coz i hv faith in sai dat he wud bring her back to me..but then d wait is testin my patience and my emotions..u know at times i know wat i m supposed to do but i just cant do dat..i donno why

    Offline shiveshwar

    • Member
    • Posts: 68
    • Blessings 0
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #76 on: March 29, 2011, 10:24:42 AM »
  • Publish
  • Om Sai Ram
    yeah Aabhu m lookin for an answer to this question...its been a long dark night and i dont see d light at d end f d tunnel..but then i am not able to give up this hope as well...and dis hope is makin my patience tested..its killin me frm within......i hv truely loved her and its no crime to love someone......nothing is more painful thn watchin ur loved ones walkin away frm u...its sucha pain dat it takes away all d happiness frm u...oh sai baba..help us..help us now..we need u now ...dont delay it..please come to the rescue..giv us our love back...please babaji..

    Offline shanu jain

    • Member
    • Posts: 213
    • Blessings 1
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #77 on: March 30, 2011, 05:24:05 AM »
  • Publish
  • om sai ram shiveshwar ji..

    u are rite at ur each point. i think u want to move on but just one thing is stopin u and dat is ur may be...... fine wait bhi karoge to kya hoga kuch time bad depresion ya slow life ya kuch bhi aisa negative. u can c relief to hai nhi wait kar rahe hi ho abhi jab. aur kya hoga agar wait nahi karte sab kuch time pe chod do sai pe chod doge to? kya apka love faint ho jayega?? ans is no agar ye truely love hi hai to. khud ko test karo.. aur jahan tak memories ki bat hai to dekho jab tak aap khud se revise karte rahoge ki wo time aisa ta itna acha ta etc to daily apka past refresh hoga jiski waja se apka present sticked hai us past me. kyun kar rahe ho refresh koi dar hai? pyar khatam ho jayega? ye kaisa pyar. yadein tab tak disturb karti hai mind me ati hain jab tak hum une aane ki permision dete hain. apna schul time yad karo. 7 standard me kaise te kya routine ta......... sab.. kuch yad aya. hardly koi incident yad hoga jab kuch hua ho. bas aur kuch nhi. aur ye jo time gya hai ye bhi kuch tim bad past ho jayega dhere dhere hoga sab. ek dum se to erase nhi hota. aur jaha tak apki confusion hai ki muje aage badhna chahiy ya wait krni chahiy. to ek bar is dm me hi wait krne walo se pucho wait ne kya dia une. kuch bhi nhi. kuki is wait me bhi wo roke sin comit kr rhe hain. kuch nhi aur. sai bhi unki madad karte hain jo chahte hain khud se kuch karna. aise merely wait karni hai to sab kuch chodo ek jaga baith jao aur bas wait kro. hum jante hain sab par ankhe band rkhna chahte hain. hamari sabki ye mentality hoti hai ki kuch bhi thoda acha mil jaye to hame lagta hai isse acha to kuch hai hi nhi. par kya aisa hai? nahin. dekho aap bhagwan nhi ho magic nhi ata. kon ho? ek am insan. fir kya guarante hai ki ye wait kuch degi apko. . khud ko cheat krke kya milta hai? jo bhi jayega apka apna jayega aur dunia me koi 2nd person nhi hai jiska kuch bhi jayega agar ap khud ko cheat kroge to. apne liye socho muje kya chaiy. aisa na ho is ek emotion me life jeeni b pade aur future me lge maine past me ku step nhi liya. may sai bles u to c d truth.

    om sai ram..

    Offline shiveshwar

    • Member
    • Posts: 68
    • Blessings 0
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #78 on: March 31, 2011, 02:19:15 AM »
  • Publish
  • Om Sai Ram
    no shanu i dont want to move on..i wanna hang on..wait karne se kuch nahi milta ye to nahi pata par move on karne ka bhi mann nahi h..today is one f those dayz where i m very low very upset...i dont see d hope..i m too hurt to b happy wid nethin else..shanu wat m gonna write here wont please anyone and m sure many wud b angry with me..but this pain is beyond me..i hv come this far due to my faith in babaji..i culd withstand d pain coz i had faith in babaji relieving me frm dis pain..but my hope my faith is shaking...everyday i think i shuld end dis lyf..but i postpone it with d hope tht tomorrow wud b d day when she wud cm bak..but now when i sleep dat hope is fading away and so is my faith and so is my life..i m ond edge..i hv this feelin son smthin gonna happen..either she is gonna cm bak or m gonna quit this lyf..i know m offending many by writing this probabaly including u..coz u all hv tried to convince me dat dyind aint solution..neither is living...i am sorry for wasting precious time of u all..but there r some people who r weak and i guess m one of them..i cant see my love walkin away..

    Offline shanu jain

    • Member
    • Posts: 213
    • Blessings 1
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #79 on: March 31, 2011, 03:06:10 AM »
  • Publish
  • om sia ram shiveshwar ji..

    hm so finaly u are admiting ki u r weak and cant move on. gud atleast aap ek decision to le rahe ho. fine suicide hi karna hai. go on. ek ache se plan banao and remember jaise apni wait k words pe strong ho ispe b strong hi rehna. aisa nhi ki last moment pe dar jao. comitin suicid is too a very dificult job. well bas ek kam kar lena usse pehle. apke parents hain na jo galatfehmi me jee rahe hain ki aap unhe koi thodi bahut bhi khushiya dene wale ho unhe clear karte jana main apka koi nhi. unke mind me ache se dal k jana maine life kisi ko comit kr di hai ab uske nhi hone pe ja raha hun. dekho apne kya karna hai bilkul apka decsn h. kuch din tak dunia apko yad kregi. par sirf apke parents hain jo maut se pehle mar jayenge. to unhe tasalli dete jana ki main ja raha hun apna dhyan rakhna. ye duty to puri karo apni. fir shaheed hona. yahan dm me bhi kisi ki koi umeed nhi tut rhi. zindagi apki hai hamein kyun fark pdega. par filhal apko jo samaj ayega wo yehi ki ek strong decsn liya hi h jab ki marna hai to apne parents ki taraf duty to nhi puri kr skte aap kuki uske liy to zinda rehna pdega. par unhe dhokhe me rakhke mat jana pls. aap stil unmaried ho nhi jante parents word kya h stil. sai baba b maa kehke rote the ki une kabhi nhi mili. par aap to sab hote hue bhi jana chahte ho to jao. koi nhi rokega. rokega bhi to rukna nhi kuki aapne jeeni hai na zindagi rokne walo ne nhi. par pls d very last tim m sayin apne parents ko kehke jana aisa na ho ki apke jane k bad unhe har pal marna pade.
    may sai helps u soon to find d way.
    om sai ram..

    Offline Kirti1

    • Member
    • Posts: 525
    • Blessings 3
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #80 on: March 31, 2011, 04:33:26 AM »
  • Publish
  • OM SAI RAM

    Dear Shiveshvar,

    Surprised to see your last post. your posts after the Shirdi visit were so fine. What happened all of a sudden?
    Shiveshvar, the phase you are in right now is the most difficult, i know cause i have been there too.....and so many others on this forum.
    It's absolutely fine to feel the way you are feeling....cry, sulk, remember her, feel the pain, the longing, the hurt. All of it is fine.
    Take each day as it comes. As I said earlier, no matter what the world says First Love is Forever. One can just never totally delete it.
    And broken heart never heals. It only pretends for the rest of the life. Whenever you write, I somehow just travel back to such times that I faced. I used to keep complaining to Baba, kept begging him, but not for once did I stop praying him.

    This is the current situation of your life. Live it. Accept each day as it comes, good bad, ugly, worse. Dont think about tomorrow, and dont flow away in the memories of the past. Just today, only concentrate on today, say to yourself its a matter of 24 hrs only. tomorrow is a new day and anything can happen.

    TODAY IS ALL YOU HAVE. SOAK IT IN AND LIVE IT.

    What you want to do is your decision. MOVE ON OR WAIT. NO ONE ELSE CAN DECIDE FOR YOU.
    It's fine, if you wanna wait. WAIT I SAY-

    --->wait for Baba to answer you,
    --->wait for your mind to be tired of thinking about her.
    --->Wait till you are bored of waiting.

    There is no rush of any kind. NO matter how strong anybody is, no one can breeze thru such phases. If they do, they have never really poured their soul in a relation. Just rewind your trip to Shirdi, and recollect what you felt when you were close to Baba. Did you feel any connection???
    I would still suggest that  you randomly open SSC page after asking your question to Baba. I am sure Baba will answer you.

    If you want to Move on then MOVE ON-
    --> Move on to the next level of pain.Tolerance. Learn to tolerate pain, tolerate hurt, tolerate longing.
    --> Move on to next level of Love, love Baba, feel the pain for Baba, long for Baba.
    --> move on to the next level of your emotions. Feel sympathy, empathy, pity for yourself.
    --> Move on to the next level of your character. Fighter, survivor, strong-willed.
    --> move on to the next level of your studies, your career, your life
    --> Move on in search of new goals, new morning, new day, new life.
    --> Move on to the next level of beautifying your life.
    --> Move on to pick up the pieces of your scattered heart.
    --> Move on to help some one in need (of any kind)

    Decide for yourself. To Move on or to Wait. But GIVE BABA A CHANCE.
    When you were born, you came with a life of 100 yrs.Minus your current age. Whatever remains, gift those to Baba.Can you? Do you trust Him?
    When Eagle is standing on Mountain Top, it does not think of what will happen if he throws himself to down. He knows God has given him wings to fly.
    Take your chance. Throw yourself to Baba, and see how he holds you and soars you higher and higher. Dont expect anything, just throw yourself.
    You seem to be a very intelligent and balance individual.

    Remember.....Baba begins when everyone else has ended.

    By the way, it is fine that you are cross with him. You will still find him around you.

    I go cross with him often, yet, he always manifests himself in some mandir on the road, some picture on the rick/cab.
    Just to tell me, "I am Listening, lady".


    Till then....Keep Praying!!!
    THERE IS ONLY 1 ASPECT IN THIS WORLD THAT DOES NOT CHANGE "BABA.
    Others like, time, people, YOUR MIND, etc. are fragile and prone to frequent changes.

    Offline shiveshwar

    • Member
    • Posts: 68
    • Blessings 0
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #81 on: March 31, 2011, 06:23:23 AM »
  • Publish
  • Om Sai Ram
    i dont know wat to say wat to think...m justfrd up with this phase...its irritating and its way too long...god doesnt hav mercy! he surely doesnt...it all makes me do all d wrong things in d world..it makes me believe there is nothing ight nothing wrong..only d way we look at it, perceive it makes d difference...why my past karma's haunting me..didnt i live long enuf in last births to pay back..why do i hav to carry burdens f past...i know i dont deserve this...all 23 years f my life i believed in god and this is wat i receive..tears ,pain and void?! is ther any god or its just another illusion on mankind..my enitre faith is in question..wat i believed all my life seems to me nothing but a gimmick..guess marx was right religion is d opium f d poor...i trusted and hav been betrayed...this all is makin my head burst..its gonna explode....i closed my eyes prayed to god please help me here..but guess he is too busy to hear or there aint no god.....everyone lied...there is no one to hear d prayer..its all fake..there is nothing right nothing wrong...just use everyone and get used

    Offline shanu jain

    • Member
    • Posts: 213
    • Blessings 1
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #82 on: April 01, 2011, 12:00:43 AM »
  • Publish
  • om sai ram shiveshwar ji..

    life is all about experiences. jo bhi ho raha hai wo kuch sikhane ke liye hai aapko. just wait and watch. surely a time will come when u will be realizing what is the truth behind such happenings. usually we loose control and blame sai for such things. but try to have patience. there is a deep meaning attached to all this. may sai bless u to remain patient at such difficult phase. may sai gives u eternal peace.

    om sai ram...........

    Offline Kirti1

    • Member
    • Posts: 525
    • Blessings 3
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #83 on: April 01, 2011, 12:07:27 AM »
  • Publish
  • OM SAI RAM

    Dear Shiveshvar,

    you are right when you say, "There is no right, no wrong"

    No one can decide that for others. Everyone takes decisions in their life, based on the limitations of their mind.
    One guy decides the glass is half full the other decides half empty. Both are right in their own perspective.

    How you percieve your situation is determined by the extent of your mind and intellectual.
    However, bad people or evil people are never born. They become so, cause that's how far their mind can go in a problematic situations.
    It is so weak that it cannot read or see beyond their ownself.

    If you feel betrayed by God then so be it. But then remember, that this is world of Free Will.
    God does not force or influence our decisions. He merely guides us. Whether to walk or not down that path is our choice.
    We only expect good things from God, without giving much. we need to realize, that somethings what we demand can be expensive for us.
    He might want to test you harder before he can give them to you. Can we not give that test? Why are we so scared?

    This below poem is the first, which he brought me to this forum.
    I was constantly crying to Baba and asking him, where is my answer, give me an answer, I cant take this anymore.
    Please read this -

     




    1) Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;                                                        
    Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.                                         2) “Wait! you say wait!” my indignant reply.
     I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate…                                           “Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
     and the Master so gently said, “Wait.” …….                                       Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
                                                                                                                 By faith I have asked, and I’m claiming your Word.
    3) My future and all to which I relate
    hangs in the balance, and you tell me Wait?                                   4) You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
    I’m needing a ‘yes,’ a go-ahead sign.                                                    We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
    Or even a ‘no,’ to which I’ll resign.                                                       You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
                                                                                                                 Lord, I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
                                                                                                                 I’m weary of asking! I need a reply.”
    5) Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
    as my Master replied again, “Wait.”
    So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,                                  6)He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine…
    and grumbled to God, ”So, I’m waiting… for what?”                          and He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.                                                                            
                                                                                                               I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
                                                                                                              I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
     7) I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
     You’d have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me                8) You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint.
                                                                                                                 You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.
                                                                                                                 You’d not learn to see through clouds of despair;
                                                                                                                 You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there.
    9) You’d not know the joy of resting in Me
    when darkness and silence are all you can see.
    You’d never experience the fullness of love
    when the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove.                         10)You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
                                                                                                                 But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
                                                                                                                 The glow of My comfort late into the night,
                                                                                                                 The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
    11) The depth that’s beyond getting just what you ask
     From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
     You’d never know should your pain quickly flee,                          12) Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
                                                                                                                  what it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
                                                                                                                          but, oh, the loss, if you missed what I’m doing in you.

                                      13) So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see, that the greatest of gifts is to truly know Me.    
                                     And though oft My answers seem terribly late, My most precious answer of all is still… “‘Wait”




    I have read these 2 very beautiful books, which I strongly recommend for you. Please read it.

    --> The Secret , by Rhonda Byrne
    --> The Laws of Spirit World by Khorshed Bhavnagri

    Read them and let me know your review.

    Till then...Keep Praying!!!
    THERE IS ONLY 1 ASPECT IN THIS WORLD THAT DOES NOT CHANGE "BABA.
    Others like, time, people, YOUR MIND, etc. are fragile and prone to frequent changes.

    Offline Kirti1

    • Member
    • Posts: 525
    • Blessings 3
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #84 on: April 11, 2011, 07:25:30 AM »
  • Publish
  • OM SAI RAM

    i would like to hear from him too.
    Just a little worried, that he hasnt done anythng untoward.

    Can ADMIN contact him in some way and check if everything is fine with him????

    Till then....Keep  Praying!!!
    THERE IS ONLY 1 ASPECT IN THIS WORLD THAT DOES NOT CHANGE "BABA.
    Others like, time, people, YOUR MIND, etc. are fragile and prone to frequent changes.

    Offline shanu jain

    • Member
    • Posts: 213
    • Blessings 1
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #85 on: April 11, 2011, 10:54:35 AM »
  • Publish
  • om sai ram..

    i think he is loosing faith.. ya shayad naraz hai kuch baba se......... wel.. sai bles him soon.

    om sai ram..

    Offline shiveshwar

    • Member
    • Posts: 68
    • Blessings 0
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #86 on: April 15, 2011, 04:37:01 AM »
  • Publish
  • its been long tht i havent posted nething on this blog..actually didnt know wat to write..abhi bh nahi pata kya likhun..tears just roll down wenever i think of her...its been 5 months now..yesterday i went to mathura ..had darshan of dwarika dheesh and janam sthaan..lord krishna and radha's vigrah was so beautiful..it was amazing...not a day has passed wen i havent remembered babaji..my heart keep prayin all day..m shattered and m lost...dont know wat to do next..m tryin very hard to think and gather myself..yes m disapponited with life and above of all m disppointed with god...but dont know why i always end up in some mandir..? i read ur posts .it appeared u all were worried for me..m sorry for being away for so long..m just 23 and i hv hav a broken heart cant deal with it in a commendable manner..where is god? wat is he doing? why me? why this to me? cant he forgive my sins? why babaji so harsh on me? wat wrong hv i done? i just loved someone from my heart and i guess it seems like a crime..and i m being punished for dat..wat went wrong..? n now i cant trust anyone..i hv got this trust deficit..i just cant love any person..i hv started hating life and people around me..all seems false gimmick illusion...thank you god for giving me this pain ...shayad i deserve it....par bas itni shikayat hai ki jab usse mujhse wapas hi lena tha to diya kyun? and just one more request dont giv me nething which u r going to  take away from me..if pain is smthin u can giv me all life long if loneliness is wat u wanna giv me please do dat but now dont giv me any happiness..i dont want the comfort of happiness coz after such comfort i wont b able to take d pain...god i m upset qwith u n i know u dont care that whether i m upset with u or not, yet i hv to say it..i m  sure i disapponited i god but u also disappointed me lord..now if tears is wat u hv given me ..keep it going...dont give me even d sight of happiness coz widout her i dont want nething..just do one favour giv me all d tears..

    Offline shanu jain

    • Member
    • Posts: 213
    • Blessings 1
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #87 on: April 15, 2011, 05:41:07 AM »
  • Publish
  • om sai ram shiveshwar ji..

    so finally u answered. disappointed ho koi bat nahi. abi shayd time lage apko samajne me par dhere dhere al such things wil vanish. we are so small to think and decide whether god is doin rite or not. just 1 thing to say ki hame utna nahi pata jitna pata hona chy god ki doings ko samajne ke liy. par d ques is ki ab kya kiya jaye jab ye sab ho raha hai hamari life me jo hamari wil k agnst h to bas patient raho. khud ko apno ko khush rkho. khud se path dhundna pdta h. and no doubt step hum le rahe hain lekin guidance sai se hi milti hai. bas visible nhi hota sab. isliy dont ques bas jaise zindagi le ja rahi h usme b positiv dhund kar acha sochte hue chal do. a day wil surely com wen u wil b realisin past me kya hua kya nhi. aur sai ka smaran rakhoge to galat steps b nhi loge. to life ko test lene do. khud se acha hi karo. bas. jab samaj nhi ata ye sab ku kisliy kab tak mere sath hi ku. use sab sai ke charnon me chod do une hi dekhna h sab tume tensn lene ki need kya h. let him do. u wil find peace soon..
    sai bles u..

    om sai ram.......

    Offline Kirti1

    • Member
    • Posts: 525
    • Blessings 3
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #88 on: April 15, 2011, 06:10:37 AM »
  • Publish
  • OM SAI RAM

    Dear Shiveshvar

    Thank Baba you are safe. You had us worried there.

    All that you posted, have been there and done that.

    However, the Best part is you are hanging in there. and the sweetest part is your journey to pilgrim places.
    Take one day at a time. fight it as it comes.
    And at the end of the day, just pour it all to Baba.
    He takes everything in his stride, love, hatred, anger, frustration, etc. He is your Punch Bag forever.

    IN Mahabharat, Krishna asked Kunti (Pandava's mother) what do you want...guess what she replied
    She asked for Pain, suffering and sorrows. Surprised Krishna asks her why?? She says, in pain and suffering, I will chant your name and you will always be with me. You have done the same thing, only for different reasons.

    Your pilgrimages are probably Baba's way of telling you to start loving him as he is. You accepted Nisha, and love her unconditionally, with all her shortcomings and limitations. By calling you to all the temples, Baba is telling you try to put the same Love and commitment towards me.

    Why not do that?? What have you to lose?? You are smart, sensible and strong person. But give Baba and Time, some time to heal you.
    All the questions you have posted, Baba will answer. For that you need to sit in front of Him, cool and calm. With all worldly thought deleted.
    Go ahead and listen to his answers.

    BTW, even if there is nothing to write,  post OM SAI RAM, just to know that you are there, live and kicking ;)

    Till then...Keep Praying!!!


    THERE IS ONLY 1 ASPECT IN THIS WORLD THAT DOES NOT CHANGE "BABA.
    Others like, time, people, YOUR MIND, etc. are fragile and prone to frequent changes.

    Offline shiveshwar

    • Member
    • Posts: 68
    • Blessings 0
    Re: will babaji accept me
    « Reply #89 on: April 17, 2011, 05:53:58 AM »
  • Publish
  • i need ur help baba..plz come to save me

     


    Facebook Comments